Archive for January, 2010

  • Physical Therapy

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    Primarily I use this blog as a way to chronicle Jude’s life. The past few posts (and likely a majority of the next few posts) have been very “me” heavy, and for those of you who just don’t care, I apologize. Some of you have expressed an interest in reading about my doctor’s appointments and my progress through PT. If you are one of the latter, here’s an update:

    On Friday, while Jude and his babysitter played at Day Frog, Josh and I met with Kenji Muro, a fantastic neurosurgen at Northwestern. Dr. Muro squeezed us into his schedule with less than 24 hours notice, and for that, I am eternally grateful. So, the appointment went well and ended with Dr. Muro prescribing physical therapy for me (as well as some meds for my pain). At this point, I’m waiting to try the new medication that Dr. Muro prescribed until after I’ve tried PT for a few weeks. I dislike drugs. I dislike, nay, I HATE putting that shit into my body. I realize that there is a time and a place for pain pills, and that yes, this *is* probably one of those times and places when they are warranted, but still, I will wait and see how my body does without them.

    This morning I had my PT evaluation at Athletico in Evanston. Overall, I thought it was a good session. The PT was personable, thoughtful, and knowledgeable. He put heat on my back and did some deep tissue massage and showed me a handful of back/core exercises that I’m to do 2-3 times per day, every day. I go back on Friday for my next session and will be going twice a week until my checking account runs dry. I’m really hopeful that the PT will be enough, that I won’t have to rely on pain pills or muscle relaxants to avoid or manage the pain for the rest of my life. I suppose only time will tell.

    Through all of this, Josh and Jude have been wonderful. Whenever I leave to go somewhere, Jude asks, “Go doctor?” He has also been great about helping me around the house. If I drop something on the floor, Jude will pick it up for me without hesitation. He is also being really good about climbing onto the bed for me for diaper changes so that I don’t have to lift him.

    Josh is a superstar of a husband. He has been taking care of Jude and the house and me, without complaint, for nearly two weeks now. He is such a source of strength for me. I’m not sure what I would do without him.

    I imagine that the next few weeks are going to be tough for me–I’m going to have to learn what my limitations are and relearn the proper way to lift and bend and sit. Luckily for all of us, we have a friend coming to stay at our place for two weeks… I’m really glad to know we’re going to have an extra set of hands on deck.

  • Menu for January 24-30, 2010

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    This week’s menu is almost completely made up of meals we have stored in our freezer. Though I’m doing much better than I was this time last week, I still can’t be on my feet for any real length of time without ending up in a world of pain. In addition to these meals, the “Casserole Calvary” from the church where Josh works is likely to supply us with a meal or two. Last week they brought us stuffed shells and veggie risotto to help us through.

    Breakfast
    Oatmeal with Ground Flax Seed, Honey, Frozen Fruit and Cinnamon

    Corn Coconut Curry Chowder
    West African Peanut Stew
    Not-Tuna Pate Sandwiches (this is a simple recipe from the raw foods cookbook Josh got me for Christmas)
    Homemade Pizza
    Eggs and Bagels
    ALTs

    I’d like to say that green smoothies were on the menu this week, but my brand new blender broke a few days ago, and we have yet to replace it. *sigh*

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  • At the Hospital

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    In one of my last posts, I left you, dear reader(s) with this cliffhanger:

    About 20 minutes after writing that final paragraph, I called the ambulance and went back to the ER. I was admitted to the hospital that evening, and just returned home last night. Stay tuned.

    Tonight, as I lie in bed for the umpteenth day in a row, I’m going to make good on my “stay tuned” promise.

    On Sunday morning, after tweaking my back in such a way that rendered me utterly useless, I decided to call the ambulance and head to the hospital. Erin, a new friend of ours, was babysitting Jude (and me), and was kind enough to offer to stay with him until Josh could get home.

    I was greeted at the hospital by Super Bitch Nurse #1, who over the course of my stay in the ER told me more than once that she and every other ER nurse was suffering from herniated discs and that they managed to “suck it up and get on with it” everyday.

    I met Semi-Asshole Neurosurgen the following afternoon. He was unable to locate the MRI films I brought with me to the ER but assured me that we could just “look at them tomorrow and figure things out from there.” Uhm. No. Sorry I can’t get up and help you look for the films, doc, but I know they’re here, and I’m not waiting another day to get treated. Find them. Now. Kthxbai. Within the hour, he *did* find the films and ordered IV steroids for me…

    Enter Super Bitch Nurse #2. While she was prepping me for the steroid injection, she inquired about my films. I told her that the doctor had found them, that they had been put out by nurses’ station. She replied that that was good because the doctor had left her a note to find them, and she “didn’t have time to do that.” Great. The nurse who’s in charge of my care doesn’t have the time to look for the films that are going to enable the doctor to diagnose and treat me. Wonderful. That same nurse laughed at me after I asked her why in the hell my body felt like it was on fire after the steroids were administered because “that’s a common side effect.” And when I asked her why she didn’t warm me, she told me that “every drug has that potential…”

    Tuesday morning the physical therapist I had met the night before stopped by to try to help me get up from bed and walk. The first time I got to my feet, I felt light-headed immediately and had to lie back down. When I tried again about thirty minutes later, I was able to stand for about a minute before I got light-headed. Steven, the PT, was really supportive and felt that I would be up and walking by the end of the day if I kept trying. My blood pressure was really, really low (88/50 on Tuesday afternoon), so the light-headedness wasn’t a surprise.

    Re-enter Super Bitch Nurse #2 to administer my meds. The PT had just left, so I asked her if she could please come back in about an hour to help me try to stand/walk. At that point I was told that she was very busy, had two other people to attend to, and that she didn’t think she would have time to assist me.

    *facepalm*

    Luckily, the fucking bitch *did* come back within the hour, and with her, uhm, help, I was able to stand up for about two minutes before needing to lie down again.

    Later that night, after Steven came back and helped me get up and walk the halls, I was discharged… but not before I had to threaten a new doctor with signing out AMA if he didn’t simply discharge me. For Christ’s sake, the doctor hadn’t seen me before, didn’t know how much my pain had improved, and didn’t know what kind of progress I had made. After dealing with the nursing staff from hell, there was no way I was spending another night in that shitty hospital. No way in hell.

    So, now I’m home. Able to stand, walk, and sit, but only for a few minutes at a time. I’m not able to take care of Jude by myself or take care of my husband, or take care of my house. I’ve been feeling really down, and I’m really looking forward to starting physical therapy on Monday and getting back to normal.

  • Letter to Jude: Months 31 and 32

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    Dear Jude,

    You’re growing up too fast. Please slow down.

    These past two months have been really amazing, Jude. Every day I find myself wishing I had a little notebook and pen on hand to make note of the new things you’re doing and saying.

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    You eat with regular-sized forks and spoons. You’ve been doing this for a while, but it was just a week or two ago that it really struck me. If Papa or I forget to give you a napkin, you ask for one, and then you use it of your own accord. Somehow you’ve figured out how to eat your soup, cereal, and oatmeal over the bowl, and if you happen to make a mess, you promptly tell us “I spill!” so we can clean it up. Immediately.

    You’ve discovered the joy of playing in the snow. Grandma Rose sent you a wooden sled as a surprise (the surprise is, we live in Chicago! It’s flat here!), and a few weeks before Christmas, we got to take it out for a spin. That day, Papa and I took turns pulling you all around the (very flat) park. You call it your “plane” and you ask to take it out even when the ground is dry.

    I would be neglectful if I didn’t mention how your use of the English language is growing by leaps and bounds these days. You’re speaking in full (or nearly fully) sentences. You sing along to Weezer and the Alkaline Trio. Before bed we sing Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star or O Christmas Tree! (even though Christmas is over). You wouldn’t believe the amount of joy Papa and I feel whenever we hear you sing.

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    Since Christmas you’ve become a one-man-band. During the early morning hours, you like to strum your guitar or play your harmonica or sing. Once 9am rolls around and your drumsticks wake up, it’s a constant clanging of sticks together and the shouts of “One, Two, Three, Four!” coming from your lips. Papa and I love listening to you make music, and luckily, none of the neighbors have complained!

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    Sometime over the past two months you’ve cut way back on nursing… so far, in fact, that I can probably say that you’ve self-weaned and are done. So! Instead of nursing to sleep, during Advent we adopted a new bedtime routine. Each night we lit the candle(s) on our Advent wreath and read a prayer from the Celtic Daily Prayer book, got changed into jammies, brushed your teeth, and snuggled down into bed to listen to Papa read a story. After that you and I would lie down to talk about our day and go to sleep. We’re still following that same routine, though we’ve replaced the Advent wreath with a simple candle from Grandma Rhonda.

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    Recently, I spent three days in the hospital. Away from you. Oh, Monkey. I know it sounds melodramatic, but JesusChristAlmighty I missed you. I didn’t want to stay. I didn’t want to be admitted, but I had no choice–I couldn’t walk. While I was at the hospital, your new friend Erin helped you make a card for me. I was so excited to get it. I put it on my bedside table and looked at it whenever I felt sad. When I got home on Tuesday night, you were so happy! You gave me some great (and gentle) hugs and showed me the paintings you had created with our friend Sarah. Maybe I’m making it up Jude, but you seem to have grown so much in those three days we were apart. You seem to be speaking so much more clearly now than you were before I went away. We’re having real conversations… you’re able to tell me about all the things you did and all the toys you played with during the day. Could all of that really have happened over a three-day span? And if so, why did it happen during the three days we were apart?

    Witnessing how much you’ve grown over the past two months has me thinking about what life with you will be like tomorrow, next week, next month… I feel so very ready for you to grow up and so very sad that there’s no avoiding it. Sometimes I look at you and wonder where my baby boy has gone. Other times I get caught up in a daydream of what you might be like when you get older. I love you, Jude.

    Love,
    Mama

  • Not Just One, but Two

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    Dear internet friend(s),

    Posting has been pretty infrequent here over the past few months. Most recently it is because I’ve been stuck in bed with two herniated discs. While it’s true that I’ve been spending most of my days online, putzing around and reading some blogs I needed to catch up on, the truth is that actually typing is a bit hard for me because I’m stuck on my stomach and can’t hold my head up very well.

    So, the story goes like this: Ten or eleven years ago, I hurt my back weightlifting at a local gym. I briefly saw a chiropractor who took x-rays, and after I felt better, I carried on with life as usual. For the past ten years I’ve had pretty bad episodes of back pain. For a long time they weren’t frequent, but since Jude was born, the pain has become a pretty normal part of life. Occasionally my back would “go out” and I’d spend a day or two in bed, but for the most part, it was just a consistent kind of pain that made me have to take my time putting on pants and bending over and lifting things, etc. In the early part of December, something changed and the pain got worse. I saw a new chiropractor at the beginning of January, and she decided to send me for an MRI. Jut this past Wednesday, something even worse happened to my back, and Friday’s MRI showed that I have not one, but two herniated discs (L4 and L5 for those who care).

    Since Wednesday evening, I’ve been stuck in bed. I got up and went to the chiropractor/massage therapist on Thursday, for an MRI and x-ray on Friday, and to the ER for pain meds on Saturday morning. Other than that, save for getting up to use the bathroom, I’ve been in bed. The pain meds are only just touching the pain, and since about half an hour ago when I turned a bit funny and caused myself even more pain, they aren’t doing much of anything for me. Up until this point (that is, about 30 minutes ago), I had been able to get out of bed for very short periods of time. Now I’m lying here, unable to get myself up and to the bathroom. A friend is over babysitting Jude (and me), and I’m grateful for her. I simply don’t know how I’m going to make it through the rest of the day. I mean, I really need to use the bathroom, but it just isn’t happening right now.

    About 20 minutes after writing that final paragraph, I called the ambulance and went back to the ER. I was admitted to the hospital that evening, and just returned home last night. Stay tuned.

  • Outgrown

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    Jude has nearly outgrown his Britax convertible car seat, so Josh and I are in the market for a new one. We’re thinking of going with the Graco Nautilus 3-in-1 Car Seat. Does anyone have any experience with it?

  • An Update Via Pictures

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    Since I’m short on time, I thought I’d update by sharing some photos with all of you.

    Before Christmas, Josh, Jude, and I met up with some friends at the Lincoln Park Zoo. We walked around and saw all the lights they had displayed, and Jude rode the carousel for the first time.

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    Now, all he wants to do is “Ride Kevin more, Mama.” (Kevin is the name of the “snipe” in the movie Up. The ostrich Jude rode looks very nearly like Kevin.

    On Christmas Eve, our tree looked like this:

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    This is Jude’s special ornament for 2009. He unwrapped it and hung it on the tree before bed on Christmas Eve:

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    On Christmas morning/afternoon, Jude really enjoyed playing with his new train set from Great Grandpa (with additional track pieces from his step-great-grandparents):

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    He also really loved his new family of “babies:”

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    I think his favorite toy, or at least one of his favorites, was his drum set from Grandma Rose. In this picture he’s pausing between songs to ask, “Too loud?”

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    Finally, here’s a picture of Jude on the morning of the 26th as we headed to my in-law’s place to celebrate Christmas. He was on the verge of being pretty sick, so please excuse the glassy-looking eyes!

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  • Menu for January 10-16, 2010

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    Thank God for food swap week. Between having dinner at a friend’s house on Sunday and stocking our fridge and freezer with food from the swap, we’re set for at least the entire week. The only reason pizza is on the menu is because my sweet boy requested it. Here’s what I’m re-heating this week!

    Breakfast
    Oatmeal with Ground Flax Seed, Honey, Frozen Fruit and Cinnamon

    Lunch/Dinner
    Vegetarian Cabbage Rolls from Mary Jo
    Tamales from Anita
    West African Peanut Stew from Sarah and Marc
    Corn Coconut Curry from Corrin
    Butternut Squash Curry Soup from Sarah and Kirk
    Curried Chana (did I get that right, Sarah?)
    Homemade Pizza

    (I contributed chili to this week’s swap but didn’t have enough for my own family. No problem though… we had some last week!)

    Snacks
    Green Smoothies
    Super Yummy Salads (a mix of salad greens, bleu cheese, almond slices, sunflower seeds, dried cranberries, a clove or two of fresh minced garlic, brewer’s yeast, and dressing)

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  • The Naked Redhead–Undressed

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  • Christmas Money

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    I’m getting ready to spend some of the Christmas money my in-laws gave me. Here’s what I’m picking up:

    Joy of Cooking: All About Vegetarian

    12 Steps to Raw Foods

    Spill Proof Paint Cups

    Wood Finish from Willow Toys so I can treat all of Jude’s wonderful wooden toys (including his kitchen from Willow Toys).

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